| over |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|03:30 am] |
i'm so ready for this to be over.
so tired of being a rock.
i'm ready to be me.
this is killing me, every day.
you don't care.
you don't even realize.
i'm done. |
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| nerdom growing |
[May. 21st, 2009|08:03 am] |
so as i arrive twenty minutes early to class, im sitting in the front row... three different colored pens on the desk... digital voice recrder ready to capture todays lecture... it hits me...
ive gtten REAL nerdy...lol
yeah |
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| reality begins.... ahh... |
[May. 18th, 2009|10:49 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | normal | ] |
| [ | music |
| | marilyn manson - we're from america | ] |
so i just got back from the bike ride to my first class, since parking passes here are fucking REDICULIOUS... i.e. 300 a sememster... yea... 4 times what USF was... but thats ok, its less than a 10 minute bike ride each way... YAY!!!
econ 105... boring... but first day of class i already corrected the instructor, polietly... lol...
YAY!
and just got two new singles off the new marilyn manson album... now granted, the last 4 albums blew royal monkey ass... if the 3 songs i've heard so far are any reflection of the album as a whole... FUCK YEAH!!! i'm sooo going to see them again... mmmmmm.... |
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| ahhhhhh |
[May. 7th, 2009|03:09 pm] |
finally got the truck totally unloaded... the apartment is one big jumbled mess of boxes... somehow managed to scratch the hell out of my reclaimed coffee table, and my wood filing cabinet...figures...
got the mower sold, so that will about pay back the money i had to borrow to move...oi..
the old ass tv has met its final days, pieces of plastic litter the truck, and the parking lot... the case for it is now only being held together by gorilla tape, heh... |
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| System Update...3.14 |
[Mar. 29th, 2009|01:04 pm] |
so i went up to bloomington for 3 days, to try to get the next phase in line... got registered for classes for summer, principles of economics... meh, only offered m-thur 8am - 11 am... only 6 weeks... shouldn't be that bad...
then classes for fall are as follows (tentative)
Economy class - Economics of Energy & Public Policy
Geology Class - Earth's Dynamic Weather
Health Sciences - Env. Health - Meeting Global Challenge
Psychology - Fundamentals of Psych.
Technology - Fundamentals of Power Technology..
should be fun at least... and definetly not anything i've really done before... i think the brain is ready for a little stimulation...
got a nice 2/1 basement apartment, on a small hill... $610 a month, INCLUDING gas, heat, and water... with a gas stove and gas water heater... so all we pay is for the electric... score... less than a mile from school, less than a mile from both best buy and chillis, which are in the same friggen parking lot... so yea..
busses... greenways!!! (old train track beds, turned into long straight paved paths for bikes and rollerblades)
saw my first ethanol / biodiesel gas station as well
i think i found home, oddly enough, at home, lol. |
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| bah humbug... |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|12:32 am] |
the first holiday in 28 years that i can't be with my mom and grandma...
bah humbug...
i'm sooo over this christmas shit... its raining, not even that cold...
its supposed to be WHITE christmas, not WET christmas...
god i can't wait to get out of this hell...
meh...
on a side note, bitching pajama party for new years... YAY!! |
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| life comes full circle... again... |
[Nov. 19th, 2008|01:18 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Hixxy - Bonkers 16 | ] |
so i just found out that i was accepted to ISU (Illinois State), which is in Bloomington / Normal, Ill... which is, coincidently, about 30 minutes from the town where my mom and grandma grew up, an hour from where i was born, and an hour from where a great deal of the remainder of my extended family are...
so i'll be moving in april, up there... hopefully to find someplace close to school so i can bike it during the non-cold days... starting in Renewable Energies, which is a Bachelors of Applied Sciences... so then i'll have the BS to go with the BA... lol...
should take me about a year and 1/2, going three full semesters, and two summers... so not that bad... now i just have to come up with the money to go... or a way to loan it... hrm...
oi... always money... it will happen... has to... |
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| welcome to 1984... again... |
[Aug. 22nd, 2008|08:58 pm] |
so i've said it before, and i'll say it again... 1984 is near... if not here...
"...said the new guidelines would allow the F.B.I. to open an investigation of an American, conduct surveillance, pry into private records and take other investigative steps “without any basis for suspicion.” The plan “might permit an innocent American to be subjected to such intrusive surveillance based in part on race, ethnicity, national origin, religion, or on protected First Amendment activities..."
http://www.nytimes.com/2008/08/21/washington/21fbi.html?_r=1&oref=slogin |
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| accomplished... |
[May. 25th, 2008|06:18 pm] |
so first i tried to run a cat 5 through the wall... no success... so in some fit of genius... or insainity from working almost as much as i did at papa johns, i decied i could set up the wireless router, on one of the lan ports on my other switch, so that it could be used solely as a wireless access point... of which i've never ever played with before... i'm a n00b to wireless totally... so after much googling, and toying, i got it to work... i'm so impressed with myself, lol...
ok... end rant |
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| stuck... |
[May. 20th, 2008|02:35 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my head | ] |
| [ | music |
| | massive attack - inertia creeps | ] |
inside my head...
stuck thinking things about things that aren't things... things that just revolve around the thoughts that are constantly being thought...
wishing for things to be, but the will never be...
visions of things flow through my head...
i think that i am quite crazy for thinking some of the things that i do...
but the thought still surface... and your my only release...
so is it wrong to persue you, even if i may never ever have you to myself??? but is that what i want? not really... is not the goal to share?
dazed and confsed...
why is it that one single note can make you double over in pain... with years of repression flowing from every cavity... making you feel stuck inside it so deep, that it itself is not even the escape that it is?
that single phrases can bring back ages worth of memories... some painful, some bleeding... but most joyous... bring things to the surface that haven't been surfaced in eras... simple melodies, with nothingness in between the spaces...
or just create an uncomfortableness within thyself?
or resurface things that you thought were dead? |
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| tick tock... |
[May. 20th, 2008|12:18 am] |
its 12 o clock... do you know where your future is??
is it somewhere with mine?
or is that just the sound of your brain popping as time slowly eats away...
stagnation is the bastard child of too much heart, too much imagination, and no ambition... |
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| ...sometimes it makes you wonder... |
[May. 17th, 2008|03:59 am] |
how you keep from going under???
heh...
life...
so upon lots of careful deliberation, and searching through others, i think after our lease term is up here, i am going to be moving to Nashville, TN... the scene is alive and upcoming there... only to go up, as it matures... in its 95% DRUG FREE self ness... yea... thats right... a fucking rave scene that is *gasp* ACTUALLY ABOUT THE FUCKING MUSIC!!! :)~~~
and its all hard dance... so thats an even greater plus...
so yea...
one more click closer to canada... |
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| stufffs |
[Jan. 18th, 2008|01:00 am] |
so the new years party went off without a hitch... 60+ people there, most of which i didn't know... banging music till 4 or so in the morning... guns going off around midnight... and still no cops... VERYNICE!!
so i got the promotion... i'm now general manager of a papa johns... so yea... way more money, but way more sponserbiliries... oi... so i SHOULD be able to save up enough to buy a house sometime before my lease is up here... again... VERYNICE!!
went to a hardcore party up in Nashville, TN... amazing vibe... yea it was all ages, but ONLY in toronto have i seen more kiddies dancing to hardcore... so nuff said...
BO! |
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| work... |
[Nov. 16th, 2007|12:30 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  giddy | ] |
so in less that 6 weeks at Papa Johns, i'm poised to get my own store to be a GM, heh... yea... *does a dance* mo money mo money mo money!!! more information when that comes...
step one to opening my own solar business almost complete.
step two, register for classes for winter.
giggidy. |
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| hrm... |
[Oct. 19th, 2007|02:54 pm] |
so the school totally blue balled me, and said that there was NO possible way i could get funding for it from the government or the school... i applied for a few private loans, but alas my credit is not good enough... YAY!!! gotta love that shit... so i tried to get the classes dropped, as per i can't goto them because i can't pay, and i need to work full time to afford the house... heh... YAY AGAIN!! and they tell me that there is NO way that i can get the classes dropped... so now i'll owe like 1700 for classes i didn't finish, nor can't finish... YES!!! bitches...
got a job at papa johns, now a shift manager... decent money, but its tons of fun at least... people there are cool and respect their bosses... good...
so i've decided that its time for me to goto technical college, to get a degree in electrical systems construction, so i can open my open business installing green solutions... i.e. solar power cells, wind generators, etc... should be good times...
having a party tomorrow night, hopefully people actually show up... that would be nice... other than that, nothing else... |
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[Sep. 6th, 2007|07:39 pm] |
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physics...slowly...taking...my...soul... |
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